New Friends, Old Friends and a Wandering Snail

So....had a few errands to run yesterday and had quite an adventure...the Wandering Snail would be jealous if it hadn't ridden along in my purse. What is a wandering snail...well its my Swarovski Crystal snail that I originally took a series of pictures of to choose a new Etsy Avatar...I decided to take it on adventures to give that silly roaming gnome a run for its money...yeah my snail is going to be the next big thing in advertising >.< Mom says I live vicariously through my snail since I can't go on real adventures it can!

While out frolicking in the strip malls along the pike I ran into several friends from High School, it was a pleasant surprise since I have lost track with a good number of people that I wish I wouldn't have. One of the places I had to go to was the pet store, I needed water conditioner and I wanted a new 'live' model, so I bought a pair of giant snails, one is black and the other a squash like color.

While at the pet store I met a cat with a very sweet disposition and eyes that were almost identical in color to mine.

Back at mom's I was playing around while she attempted to fix Dusty's car...and found a HUGE praying Mantis...she became my friend and posed for some excellent pictures...one of the best models I have ever had!

It is amazing how much I have gotten into photography, I randomly go through these phases where I can't make jewelry...I am just not inspired...usually its because I need supplies and the things I do have just make me go blahhhh because most of my beads that I have now are 'filler beads' oh well I have a huge amount of jewelry to put on etsy, so taking a break from my beads wont financially kill me and make it impossible to buy my beads come November. One good thing about my photography thing that I am into right now, I have become addicted to Deviantart again (just like High School!) I am hoping to sell prints of my photos and mom's paintings on there.
And amid all the flurry of activity, the fluffy has been brutally attacked my hayfever -_-

But I can't Think of a Title!

Well I am in a some-what better mood now then in comparison to a few days ago. Thanks to some very sweet etsians: SurrenderDorothy Carapace and artbyserena I was able to go to the Gem Show and make a few purchases. I hadnt been in a few years, but wow has it changed! It used to be where I could by awesome and rare supplies for really cheap prices. The only rare things I found were these beads


They are Natural Blue Chalcedony...not entirely rare, but I have not been able to find them in bead form anywhere and I need them for a project. Also some Kyanite daggers, pretty high quality and they were on sale. For both strands it was about $17. It amazed me how much the sellers at the show marked up their prices...I can get most of my stuff cheaper if I continue buying bulk. Another thing I found annoying, when I used to go there were tons of lapidary artist and people selling gems in their raw form. Almost all the gems were mounted in foam (yuck) and ready for display...and there was only one lapidary...no slabs, no metalworkers...I doubt I will go back next year since the show has gone to poo.

I got an interesting thing in the mail yesterday, Fire Mountain Gems sent me a mounted certificate for participating in the contest...I am sure everyone gets one, but it still made me feel special and I have it sitting on top of my computer. I might enter again next year...but it is nearly impossible to compete against the bead weavers ^_-


I also had some more photography fun with my Swarovski Crystal snail. It started as a quest for a new etsy avatar but I took so many I like that I am going to get prints and hang them in my house...maybe even sell them on etsy when I open my photography store. My new Avatar...the rest are on flickr

The Doldrums

I am stuck in the doldrums. Every year from around Mid-August to Mid-October I get into this complete funk...I am not creative, very little cheers me up, I am edgy, have bizarre dreams and all I want to do is stare into space.

I was a little excited because I thought I was going to be able to go to this http://www.rockandmineral.org/annualshow.htm but with the financial crap and stress with my mom I ended up broke. Joe told me if I sold something by tonight I could go...well I traded something but no sales.

So my happy little possible place to go, a gem show, to be surrounded by shiny beautiful thinks and people who share the same interests as me....my bubble has been burst and now I am even grumpier

Wasnt that fun

tons of questions that show your in depth side!

basics
whats your name?: Amanda, the teal Haired Snail
what do people call you?: Azhure
where you named after anything?: I was supposed to be Named Andromeda after the galaxy
if you were born the oppisite sex what would your name be?: Justin
do people spell/say your name wrong?: some people can't pronounce Azhure to save their lives
if you could change your name what would you change it to?: der...Azhure...or snail
gender?: Female
birthday?: 11-19-1985
age?: 22
age you act?: 13
age you want to be?: I am content with my age
height?: 5 and a partial inch
eye color?: Green and Gold
happy with it?: I have very unusual eyes, so yes I am very happy with it
natural hair color?: ash blonde...the same shade of tree bark
happy with it? if not do you dye it?: I dye it since teal, cobalt and green are not exactly natural...unless you are a mossy sloth
righty or lefty?: right
family?: I have a chosen family that is wonderful
pets?: lots and lots of fish
peircings?: lip, nose, eyebrow and ears
tatoos?: none yet
love and stuff
single?: nope
who are you with, or who do you want to be with?: A fluffy haired dragon
are you in love?: yeah
have you ever been in love, if so how many times?: several times
do you believe in love at first sight?: kinda
is it possible to be faithful to one person for ever?: yeah
do you want to get married?: already did
do you want to have kids?: no!!!
how many?: -1
do you believe in divorce?: yeah
do you belive in true love?: yesh it is cheese
do you consider love a mistake?: thats a weird question
turn-ons?: blue shiny things and a well constructed nest
turns-offs?: sun-light
do you think the oppisite sex finds you attractive?: yeah
what is best about the opposite sex?: they are opposite
what is worst about the oppisite sex?: they are male
are you a virgin?: no
do you belive you should be in love to have sex?: meh, not really
right at this moment...
where are you?: in my giant white Queen Anne Chair
what can you see out your window?: street and an abandoned house
are you listening to music?: no
are you lonely or tired?: not really, its only 2 in the morning
use 5 words to decribe how you are feeling:: hungry, itchy, sarcastic, creative, nerdy
are you talking to anyone online? if so who?: the etsy forum
are you talking to anyone of the phone? if so who?: no
what are you wearing?: a long boho skirt and a teal tank top
what are you doing?: typing
whats on your mousepad?: nothing! I have a roller ball
friends
how many true friends do you have?: 7
are you a loner?: kinda
who is your best friend?: gumby
oldest?: the gumby
newest?: ummm sheena I think
shyest?: none of them
loudest?: me!
smartest?: Chris...he is a walking dictionary
ditziest?: Gumby (hehehe)
funniest?: Dusty
who is the best listener?: Tony
do you prefer to hang out with one friend or a group of friends?: a small grouping
who do you wish you were closer to?: my betta, pepsi...he is so antisocial
who knows the most about you?: Lumpy the catfish
who knows the least about you?: hmmmm BaconII the newt
who do you trust the most?: Gumby
the least?: hmmmm....Lips the sucker fish...sneaky bastard
who do you fight with the most?: Hydra!
who do you talk to online the most?: etsy people
who do you talk to on the phone the most?: gumby when she had one
do you trust others easily?: nope
who house were you at last?: gumby's
who lives the farthest away?: uggg we all live within a few miles of each other
do you....
smoke?: no
drink alcohol?: sometimes
pray?: My version of it
go to church?: I avoid them at all costs
sleep with stuffed animals?: Dinosaur!!
take walks in the rain?: I play in it
dance in the rain?: yep
do any sports? if so which ones?: aaaacccccccccccckkkkkkkk
lie a lot?: if I say no...how will you know if I am telling the truth
steal?: like a magpie
gamble?: occasionally
have you ever....
kissed a stranger?: a few times
screamed so much you lost your voice?: not recently
laughed so much it was painful?: yes...its called gas
cried so much it was painful?: yeah
gone skinny dipping?: its called a bath
had a medical emergency?: several
ran away from home?: no
done something extremely unexpected?: not really....except gas
slept outside?: no
been onstage?: a few times
deep stuff....
whats your biggest fear?: getting sliced open by doctors again
what was your weirdest dream?: all of mine are odd..weirdest is the demon sitting on my chest eating my intestines
scariest dream?: demon eating my insides
do you have a reoccuring dream?: I have deja vu dreams
what was your best dream?: epic adventure dreams
what IS your dream?: COLORSSS
do you live in the moment?: I live in the alternate deminsion found in the back of the dryer
what you greatest stregth?: knowledge
whats your greatest weakness?: physical crap
do you have a motto you live by?: Feed Me
if your life were a movie what would it be called?: Dude, whats that smell?
do you have any bad habits?: hehehe
do you have any secrets?: yes, really I am an alien
are you fake?: an alien Cyborg...so yes I am fake
what do you want to do in life?: Be recognized as God
are you a daredevil?: not really
are you predictable?: no
do you keep a journal/diary?: not really
if you could change one thing about you would you? what would it be?: I want antennas
if you were someone else, would you be friends with yourself?: like having multiple personalities?
do you think your a good person?: I taste good
do you think your emotionally strong?: mayyybe
do you regret anything?: only not eating all that pasta the other day
do you think life has been good so far?: good like cheese
what do you like most about you body?: my hair
least?: my toxic waste exhaust pipe
are you trust worthy?: maybe
are you gullible?: kinda

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Poetry

So...I was cleaning through my file cabinet and I found a notebook filled with some of my old poetry...I almost died, I don't know if it was from laughing or embarrassment that I wrote something like this back in high school. I have to share it

SEPARATION
Do you miss me yet?
Does your mind drift to me?
Does your body long for my touch?
I miss you
My mind is always sailing to you
Like a boat lost at the stormy sea
And I standing on the prow
Crying to the Sirens
To sing a more pleasant tune
Not of mourning and loss
For if I die among the rocks of memory
I will find no joy in my destruction
Missing you only you
As the wound I my heart putrefies
Weeping the sweet syrup of decay
Blended with the thick wine of blood
Intoxicated with the pain of longing
Do you feel my pain?
Are you as drunk on it as I?
We are living two separate lives
While our hearts beat
Calling to one another
Cursed fate
Separating lovers for so brief a moment
The sweet moments with you I cherish
Like a blue summers day
Your sweet caresses remind me of Apollo’s whispers
Promising warmth and eternal youth
The noxious time that we spend apart
Is better spent below the earth
Like Persephone in Hades’ realm
Longing for the sun
But I sit in starving darkness
Hungry for you
Wary of the sweet tantalizing ruby fruit
That would ease my longing
For a brief moment in sunlight’s ecstasy
An instant gratification
That leaves me longing for you more
A pomegranate seed turns to dust in my mouth
Compared to your bounty
My love do, not leave me longing for you for too long
For death would be sweeter nectar
To poison my soul with

Talk about angst! Now feel free to giggle at my ghastly poetry!