So it seems I have come to a crossroad, and either path is fraught with much peril.

First, how I arrived at this fork: towards the last week of October I had a very big sale, it re-awakened my dead creative spirit with the false hope that soon I would be able to buy beads and really go back to creating jewelry...a lack of supplies is like as I told Joe, trying to stock groceries without hands...its possible but its extremely frustrating and painful. I have sold some yarn (which barely covered the etsy fees)

and traded for some gifts and other odd-ball things...things have dried up again and that burning hope for beads has dwindled to a small flicker.
Path #1. I can keep promoting on and off etsy like crazy, list and basically keep doing what I am doing and keep hoping that my sales pick up and I get to buy beads by the new year
Path#2. I can get a part time job working nights stocking groceries with Joe, that way my paychecks can pay for beads and other things I might need for my business

Now...both options can possibly fail or work...path 1 is completely up to fate and relying on the public to purchase my art. At first (back in march) this seemed very likely, business was booming! But the economy went down the poo shoot and so did sales.
Path2 terrifies me!

How on earth am I supposed to hold a job...my new medication that I thought solved all my problems and fixed my health caused really bad side effects and they stopped working...so my health is back to stage 1..constant pain, sickness and I spend most of the day in the bathroom or unable to move. Who is going to hire someone with Crohn's and Fibromyalgia who limps?

well they did hire someone to stock shelves with a fake knee
So this is it fate...give me some sort of sign on which path to take, because either one seems like a royal pain